I had such a great weekend!!! We drove up to Nashua on Saturday morning, and I went to my old school's winter formal on Saturday night. :D
The dance was (mostly) a lot of fun. No one recognized me at first, and it was funny to see everyone's reactions when they realized who I was. Maria said to me, "Oh my god, it's like everytime I see you, you've gotten prettier and prettier!" I blushed. xD I looked a lot better this year than I did last year. It was so great to see all my friends again...but then, there were those that just blew me off. Like my "friend" Sarah...I said hi to her and she totally blew me off, but I KNOW she knew who I was. Whatever. Everyone looked so great, and of course it was a blast to see who was there with who. I actually ran into Korey, my 5th and 6th grade "boyfriend" who I haven't seen in about 3 years. He picked me up and gave me the biggest hug I think I've ever gotten! It was really really great to see him. Plus, I saw my old neighbor Jeff who graduated last year...and then I ran into someone REALLY unexpected.
One of my best friends used to be this guy named Steve. (I can't remember if I wrote about that whole debacle in here or not.) We were really really close. We ended up falling for each other before I moved out of Chelmsford, but didn't want to be together with the distance. So we dealt with it as best we could, and then he started dating my friend, who really liked him. He asked me beforehand if I was okay with it and I was, so whatever. Then I heard from a reliable source that he cheated on her with another one of my friends, so I called to ask him about it and we got into an argument and he hung up on me. We didn't talk again after that, and I erased him from my life. I saw him at the winter dance LAST year (so I was a junior, he was a senior) and didn't say anything...we just kind of engaged in a glaring contest. Talk about awkward.
He was at the dance again this year. Yesterday was his birthday, so he figured he would just come party at the dance since that's where everyone would be. I saw him...and I really wanted to say something. So I poked him and asked if I could borrow him for a bit. We went outside and we just TALKED for the first time in almost two years. It felt good just to have that burden of holding a grudge against him lifted off my shoulders. We had been extremely close before the whole ordeal happened, and it was good to be back on good terms with him. So we talked, and he asked for my phone number so we could catch up at some point. Later on, we ended up dancing (slow, of course.) I don't remember the song, but it felt weird. Like we had our chance, and we blew it. After the song was over, he gave me that look like he was gonna kiss me (and I needed to avoid that at all costs), so I kissed him on the cheek and there was whispering and such...stuff like, "I missed you." It was short and sweet. And it felt good, just to get some closure on the whole issue. After the song ended, another slow one came on. And neither of us could find anyone else, so we danced again. The song that played was entitled (oddly enough): "Love Begins Again Tonight". It was all I could do to keep from laughing. Surprisingly enough, I found myself thinking about Phil during most of the song. I still do miss him a lot. When the song was over, Steve and I didn't even look at each other...we just turned and walked in opposite directions. I don't mind. I'm glad it's over. I don't want to go back down that road again. We had our chance...I loved him and he loved me, but it just didn't work. And I've moved on. Forward motion counts, not backward motion.
After the dance, I went back to Tamami's where I was staying and we ate her mom's spectacular cooking (I could have died and gone to heaven!!!). Then we just crashed on the couch and watched Sex and the City...I'm pretty sure I was asleep before the first episode was over; I was so tired. Woke up, took a shower, and had the best freaking breakfast I have EVER had. Bacon potatoes and rice w/ chicken and asparagus and scallions. Abso-fucking-lutely amazing. Then we just watched Riki run away from the cops playing Need For Speed, and then we watched Lost in Translation and Bride & Prejudice. It was a fun afternoon, and it was nice to just chill out after the hell I've been living through for the past month or so, better known as school.
But unfortunately, I am not yet done with my homework...so I should probably try to put a dent in that before Desperate Housewives comes on and it's time to dig into my Chunky Monkey ice cream. Ah, the simple things in life.
Current Music: Eva Cassidy - Songbird